And I've still not written about my life-changing trip to SUNY Broome ... .
Some months ago I'd received an invitation to speak at SUNY Broome Community College in Upstate New York. Not feeling comfortable accepting commitments that lie far in the future (I believe this would have been for Commencement) but really excited and flattered at the invitation, I passed the request along to my agent in NY for consideration. She explained my reluctance despite interest, and explained that I would be on the East Coast for another engagement quite soon (this was the Glamour event) which opened the possibility of adding a visit to Bloome to my itinerary
Plans were immediately made for a day or two extension to accommodate the trip to Bloome.
It was a 3-hour drive for a 1-hour commitment, and -- as it turned out -- worth every moment.
After a lunch at a local cafe we drove to the nearby campus to be greeted by a member of the administrative staff who turned out to be a FaceBook friend who had been reading my posts and blog for a long time, which ended in her bringing about this invitation that placed us on this campus on this freezing day in Upstate New York. You never know, right?
There is something vitally important as one ages -- the sense of no long becoming -- but be-ing. One needn't prepare, make notes, anticipate, for that. In the moments left to me, I tend to skip the preliminaries and just BE!
Intuitive soul that I am, there were no more than a few minutes -- after the introductions -- to feel the deep despair in that room. It was palpable, tangible, heavy ... .
I spoke for about an hour - including the Q&A -- and that feeling left the room with me, hung over me through the drive back to Manhattan, and remained overnight and throughout the flight back to the Bay Area.
It was strange in that I felt both saddened and elated, simultaneously, as I re-visited Broome in my imagination over the days ahead. Wondered if what I'd felt in that room was the general angst of the young who are living in these days of chaos, uncertainty, and gloom; of the dire predictions of global warming and climate change; of a sense of no one of consequence or maturity at the helm of an out of control government ... .
Elated because -- as I left that room -- I'd felt the warmth, the humanity in those hugs, in a firm sense that somehow, despite all, we'd touched souls that day, and that I'd made a difference.
And that's a story that needs a space of its own ... because the difference it made was not in that audience, but in me.